Life my greatest Bane

Oh, my life,

How I despise and dread thee, 

Every single moment you chain and imprison, 

In this sad and miserable existence, 

Drowning in an ocean of sorrow, 

And falling deeper into my pit of despair, 

Honestly, 

I'm tired, 

Tired of dreading every day,

I have to open my tired eyes, 

Seeing a new day but being greeted by the same old pain, 

Shame, anger, sadness and frustration, 

My constants and the only things I feel each and everyday, 

I feel like I'm living a nightmare, 

One where I can't wake up from, 

Stuck on repeat, 

Forced to live a life that only brings me pain, 

I can't breath, 

I feel like two hands are on my throat, 

Squeezing and crushing my wind pipe, 

Allowing just enough air to pass through for me to stay alive

But denying me of enough to make me feel like I'm suffocating to death, 

But death sadly, 

Never comes, 

I'm tired of my miserable existence, 

I need a way out, 

I willing to do anything to numb the pain, 

Please, 

Someone, 

Anyone, 

Help, 

I'm tired of the pain, misery and sorrow, 

I just want to, 

Even if it's for a fleeing moment, 

Feel true and genuine joy, 

I'm tired of wearing a fake smile and laughing like nothing's wrong, 

I just want to enjoy my life, 

I don't want to die, 

But with each passing day, 

With the misery and sorrow I'm forced to live with, 

It's getting harder and hard to live, 

I know I'll die one day, 

I just hope it isn't by my very own hands.